why?
why are you so good to me?
your TOO good to me.
well. i'm not complaining am i?
ur sweetness outshine mine. i try to be nice. but your nicer.
your always nicer. so. u have to wake up at 5+ a.m tml to acc me.
yea.. i like it when your nice :)

i need a little faith. to carry on with life.

mum, sorry for talking back. but why. why do u always pick on me and not the others.
am i always wrong? i try to explain. but u never give me a chance. i'll cry for you, will the others do the same? i sense so much bias-ness in your statement. i feel like walking away. i try to be nice to you, but u never appreciate. for me, u let me the last in everything. if ever to choose, i know i'm not your favourite one. why do i compare? do i sound pathetic to you? i could have ignore every thing u have just said. even if u scold me for no whatever reasons. i'm always wrong, they are always right. pray, i do not wish to run away whenever i feel so upset. i try to avoid but it always come back to me. a feeling- so isolated from you.

will u notice deep down i'm crying i'm bleeding i'm sad. tell me if u feel what i'm feeling.perhaps i'll share with you what i'm thinking. i just need some space some concerns some time alone. i just want some companion some warmth some love. like you ever feel this before.

to end this. i'm contented.
i' love my life. i just hate all this freaking emotions that comes out of me.
i realise i really have everything. esp when i realise my room is filled w many many gifts n love that some friends or passerby gave me. i just never really look at it. so maybe i should stop whinning when i have so many ppl who are nice to me.

sigh. i need a break. a break away from tutorials